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My Name Is Lola Snow
If you are reading this page then I assume you want to know who I am. Good luck with that. If you find out, then please let me know? I’m not, despite all evidence to the contrary, a talking snowflake. Sorry if that disappoints you. I am 28 years old, female, prone to talking without thinking, clumsy, flippant, useless with makeup, but overall they reckon I’m reasonably likable. I have an eating disorder, have done since I was 13, and that’s mainly what this blog is about. According to my medical notes I have a whole bunch of other problems too, more than you can shake a stick at. However, please don’t shake a stick at them, it could be viewed as derogatory, unless of course your stick is made out of a Phoenix feather, and the shaking would result in an instant removal of my ED. Magic wands are most welcome here, random stick shaking is discouraged. I managed to cure myself of most of my labels, by simply not associating with the profession that bestowed them upon me. This blog started off as a written escape plan to sort my life out, but seems to have evolved into an epic string of whinging about NHS ineptitude and it’s spurious psychiatric labelling; slightly dodgy analogies for mental illness, and depressing posts about my misspent youth. All that said, it’s my pride and joy, and I love it. Oh you might notice some of my posts are password protected. If you don’t have the password it’s because I don’t know you. If I gave out the password to everyone then they’d be no point in having one. Get to know me if you want to know me. This isn’t a Pro-ana blog, just so you know. I’m not condoning an eating disorder as a lifestyle choice, a hobby, or an esoteric club. It’s not cool to try and starve yourself into child sized clothing, binging and purging isn’t a clever little cheat to stay in shape, it’s a lethal mentality. Pro-anorexia is on a par with Pro-cancer so if you are looking for some Thinspo I suggest you bugger off over to Xanga, you’ll find none on this site. Or you could stick around, maybe learn something, and get involved in the discussion of living with an ED. Feel free to comment on my posts, this is an open invitation to judge me….how often do you get to do that? Please take a minute to complete the following customer service poll, your name certainly won’t be entered in this months lucky prize draw because there isn’t one, but I will sell your information if I get the opportunity. (Kidding, sort of)
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Oh wow I love your blog and it’s weird it took me so long to find it. Funnily enough I went through a time of eating disorders when I was younger and was obsessed with it. Until I just realized I love cake too much. Cheesecake, brownies the whole lot. And so I am a failed anorexic.
But I really like the way you write, especially the sarcasm: gotta love that sarcasm.
And the eating sugar free jelly with chopsticks thing- hilarious!
Thanks for checking out my blog and commenting it makes me feel less like a crazed monkey typing at a laptop hoping people are reading it.
Much love xxxx
Comment by ngomos — September 23, 2008 #
Thats so nice of you!
I am determined to learn to love cake! who knows, maybe one day soon
Comment by Lola Snow — September 23, 2008 #
Hey I just wanted to say that everything you post on my blog really means A LOT to me, truly it does.. It always seems to give me a boost of encouragement and a smile on my face.
So thank you!
ps also whenever i see jello i think of you.. or chopsticks lol
Comment by Aly — September 23, 2008 #
Thanks Aly. Take care of yourself, OK? x
Comment by Lola Snow — September 30, 2008 #
I really enjoy reading your posts, it seems like you are really trying hard to recover. if you have a hard day then you have my email address because i have been their i know what its like trying to do it by yourself. good luck with your recovery.
jenny
xxxx
Comment by girlsneedmore — September 26, 2008 #
Hi Jenny, thanks for reading x
Comment by Lola Snow — September 30, 2008 #
Hey.
A lot of what you say hits home. Today a milkshake, tomorrow the world etc. although it was a ham sandwich in my case. Under 150 cals – I love nimble bread and super-processed ham. 12 cals a piece? I think I can manage that…
Maybe check my blog sometimes? It’s a load of random words that I would love to say out loud one day…
Gutter Girl
Comment by Gutter Girl — September 29, 2008 #
Hi Gutter Girl,
Thanks for popping by. Feel free to leave me a bunch of random words anytime you like!
I’ll check your blog out shortly
Lola x
Comment by Lola Snow — September 30, 2008 #
hello – i like your blog! would you be interested in submitting one of your existing posts to the carnival of eating disorders? here is an example: http://www.moritherapy.org/article/carnival-of-eating-disorders-august-2008-edition/
Comment by isabella mori — October 9, 2008 #
Hi Isabella
I’ve sent you an email.
Lola
Comment by Lola Snow — October 10, 2008 #
i’ve just checked out your blog cursorily, but will definitely be reading more when i get the time.
Comment by mplimasol — October 18, 2008 #
Hi mplimasol,
Thanks for dropping by, hope this are good with you. Contact me anytime if you need an understanding ear, although it seems from your blog that you have one of those already!
Take Care
Lola
x
Comment by Lola Snow — October 18, 2008 #
Hi!
Just wanted to say thanks for making a comment on my brand-new blog. Yours is excellent. I’m bookmarking it.
Comment by paleasporcelain — October 18, 2008 #
Thanks, I’ve got my eye on yours as well, you’re on my google reader! Take Care
Lola x
Comment by Lola Snow — October 18, 2008 #
Hi there, thanks for taking the time to follow my blog – I will be following yours too!
Comment by hanberry — October 20, 2008 #
Thanks Hanberry! Your profile picture is too cute BTW
Lola x
Comment by Lola Snow — October 20, 2008 #
Hiya…
Just came across your blog, I didn’t realise there was so many people blogging to be honest!! I started mine a wee while ago, just to try and keep a record of my mental wellbeing, and as a vent for all the shit running around my brain.
It’s more “ramblings of a mentalist” than anything else to be honest. But, yea… I feel like rambling, as I am doing now…
Anyway, keep up the good work. I’m most impressed by the huge number of amazingly well written blogs in the blogosphere(is that even a word?…) and yours is certainly up there!
Cheers…
Me
Comment by Me — October 23, 2008 #
Awww thanks..Me…how strange does that feel, typing that, like I am SuperEgo, Queen of the Egos! Great idea for an alias. I found your comment, akismet spamcatcher thought that you were Spam. Are you a covert spammer? If you are i’ll buy what you’re selling, it seems to be some form of mentalism, and as we all know, you can never really be mental enough!
Lola x
Comment by Lola Snow — October 23, 2008 #
Damnit… Caught already…
Yes, I am planning to start the Sacred Church of Mentalism. A splinter group from the People’s Front of Mentalism. And we are (I say we, but it’s only me thus far…) we are spamming mentalists blogs throughout the ‘net!
Anyway, thanks for your comment regarding me not losing my mind completely. It’s nice to think that I might be able to “get it all back” at some point… But, ya know… who knows…
Cheers…
Me
Comment by Me — October 23, 2008 #
It got you again. I think it’s got some form of vendetta against you. Watch your back, i would. Akismet is slightly mentalist – think HAL_9000 out of Space Odyssey! If you can’t find your mind, consider buying a cheap replacement off e-bay, or put up some lost and found signs on Mental Avenue. Does it come when called or have a collar?
Comment by Lola Snow — October 24, 2008 #
How could *I* ever be regarded a “spammer”, this is what happens when you let kids loose with no mad programming skillz…innit…
Interesting though, time was when this kind of rejection, even from some dodgy eastern european teenage rent-a-coder would have me looking for my cutting device of the time. Yet here we are with no want for such a thing!
Instead I’m still up at 1am typing a reply in the blog of someone who I don’t know, in the knowledge that our good friend Akismet will once again try and stop me… And there i was thinking I was making some progress…
Incidentally, what is the general etiquette for jokes in blogland? I generally make jokes about the fact that I cut myself and that people are all mentalists etc etc… I do fear making a “faux pas” at some point soon.
Cheers…
Me
Comment by Me I'mnotaspammer — October 24, 2008 #
I wouldn’t worry about making sick jokes here, I encourage it. I mock just about everything. As my friend Jane is keen on pointing out “It’s good to laugh, it means you’re not dealing with it” Feel free to be as twisted as you like! And I think say what you want on your own blog – that’s your space. Maybe just be a bit careful about commenting with dark humour on people you don’t know, some people are attempting to deal with their issues. Actually, I am too, but flippancy has it’s place for sure. I have adjusted spam-catcher 2008 to recognise you now, provided the porno-spammers don’t hijack your address, or start adding the word “Ranting” to their spams!
Comment by Lola Snow — October 25, 2008 #
My pleasure Lola, you have a great blog. Thanks for stopping by my piece of the internetz and for the laugh. I’m off to search for the blood of a virgin giraffe now!
Comment by Dark Sarcasm — October 24, 2008 #
GIRAFFES!!!! LOL x
Comment by Lola Snow — October 25, 2008 #
hi Lola,
Just discovered your blog..tis dead good and I will be coming back for a nosey
xx
Comment by margerydaw — November 9, 2008 #
Thanks for popping by Margerydaw
Comment by Lola Snow — November 9, 2008 #
I love the word-balloon thingee you gave to my link… that’s probably the coolest, and the most accurate one I’ve come across. Thanks.
Comment by Gabriel... — November 12, 2008 #
Absolute pleasure – just spotted your avatar – that is too cool. Thanks for the link!
Comment by Lola Snow — November 12, 2008 #
Thanks for your comments. This is an interesting blog you have got here. I look forward to checking it out! Sometimes i feel like Im doing the recovery thing my “own” way too. But all of the established ways of doing things seem to never..no, never.. work out for me! oh well. Have a good day
Comment by shawna — November 21, 2008 #
Thanks for dropping by. Recovery is definitely a constant battle, I think we each just have to find our own way of doing things, even if that means butchering a few well known techniques to get there! I think it just takes persistance, and lots of nice medication
Lola xx
Comment by Lola Snow — November 21, 2008 #
Thanks for the comment…glad to see that youre on the road to recovry and youre doing a great job explaining to others that its a long road ahead of those who are in recovery, that you cant just wake up one morning and be cured, but at the same time explaining how recovery is possible and will happen over time! looking forward to reading more
Comment by anappleaday16 — November 27, 2008 #
Thanks Kaity,
it’s great to have some input from someone in a similar boat. Make sure you keep writing, I’m curious to hear more of where about you are in the whole process
Lola x
Comment by Lola Snow — November 27, 2008 #
Nope, I don’t know you. I added you to my blog roll because I like that your blog is not pro-ed. Also you are my age and it is nice to see someone my age dealing with this too and not just teens. I know there is a rise, I’m just not seeing them.
Comment by pleasedonttell — November 29, 2008 #
Oh Ok, well happy to have you on board. check out my blog roll and if you would like I can send you a whole bunch of links to other ED sites which I have been collecting
Thanks for dropping by
Lola x
Comment by Lola Snow — November 29, 2008 #
Sometimes serendipity isn’t needed.
Comment by viiviiviivii — December 5, 2008 #
Sometimes all you need are pineapple donuts, vanilla milkshakes and Christmas Markets….
Lola x
Comment by Lola Snow — December 5, 2008 #
Hey Lola,
Just stumbled across your blog. It rocks. Going to blogroll you if that’s ok?
Karen x
Comment by fadingstar86 — December 7, 2008 #
Course it is Karen, and thanks for the add!
Lola x
Comment by Lola Snow — December 7, 2008 #
Ditto fadingstar. Your blog is smart, honest, funny, touching. Thanks!
Comment by ramona — December 8, 2008 #
Thanks for your input Ramona, it means a great deal to me to know that people are reading.
Lola x
Comment by Lola Snow — December 8, 2008 #
Hi Lola
You commented on my blog ages ago and I’ve never really got back to you so sorry about that. Trying to get back into my blog…as times are a changing and I never write when things are at there strangest. I re-found your blog through my friend’s (fadingstar86) blogroll so here I am saying hi and great reading on a fantastic blog.
Will be back blogging myself soon
xxx
Comment by bluebluestar — December 9, 2008 #
Thanks Blue, hope things are looking up for you a little bit.
Lola x
Comment by Lola Snow — December 9, 2008 #
Great blog – I thought I was the only one who poked fun at EDs. Thanks for joining by Facebook blog network btw … Hope you keep reading and writing!
Angela
Comment by Angela — December 17, 2008 #
Hey Angela, thanks for dropping by, sorry about the later reply, it’s been chaos in Lolaville.
Lola x
Comment by Lola Snow — December 22, 2008 #
Feedback on Marine Snow
I visited your blog, Marine Snow located at http://operationlola.wordpress.com/ recently. I must say, I’m quite impressed by the blog’s content. In particular, I really liked http://operationlola.wordpress.com/2009/01/12/from-cheeky-to-chesty/.
Good job!
I’d like to know if you’d be interested in having me as a guest writer for your blog. I am a features writer working with ********.com. I’d like to write a free 300 to 400 word blog entry for you. I have a few years experience and would really enjoy writing one or two guest blog entries for your blog.
If you’d like to take me up on my offer, please send me a topic and a quick outline of what you’d like the article to say. Please give me as much detail as possible so I can make the blog entry meet your specifications as much as possible.
In exchange for this free blog entry, I would like to request a linkback to ******* in the body of the blog entry somewhere using the title tag “********.”
I look forward to your response
Best Regards,
Mike Burlingame
Comment by Mike Burlingame — January 14, 2009 #
Hi Mike,
Thanks for dropping by, and I’m glad you enjoyed Cheeky to chesty, I particularly enjoyed writing it.
As you will see from your comment I’m afraid I had to blank out the references to your product. I did a little research with Professor Google and it appears that your product is actually a “miracle” fat cure. I hardly think that’s appropriate given the nature of this EATING DISORDER RECOVERY SITE. Whilst I appreciate that you’re just trying to make a buck, I’m trying to keep myself and my readership alive, and so I’m sure you’ll understand why I won’t be approving any references to fad diets or false promises.
As for your offer to write an article for free for this site, I’m going to have to say “Thanks, but No Thanks”. Whilst I’m sure you must have lots to write with regards to my own personal battle to survive anorexia, I’m hardly struggling for inspiration right now. Of course, If I am making a mistake and confusing you with a spammer, and this was a genuine offer from a reputable company, you have my apologies, but the answer is still no thanks.
Lola x
Comment by Lola Snow — January 14, 2009 #
Lola–your response to this reminds me of the time my mother answered the phone, it was a telemarketer, who asked to “speak to the person who handled the phone bills.” Mom’s quick response? “I’m sorry, we don’t have a phone.”
Comment by Tiger — October 25, 2009 #
I’ve just spent about half an hour wandering round your archives, and I know I’ve been reading it for ages anyway but I felt a sudden moment of appreciation. So I thought I’d share it, in case I forgot to do so later. I love your blog and your writing so much it’s ridiculous; this is one of my Top Three Favourite Blogs Ever. Yeah, I know, restrain your excitement…
So. That’s me done being peculiar for now, I think.
Suzy x
Comment by dumpedbyahallucination — January 15, 2009 #
Thanks Suzy, that means a lot really. And you were one of my first commenters too, how wierd that seems forever ago but 6 months has changed my life.
Lola x
Comment by Lola Snow — January 15, 2009 #
Ooh, and I just remembered, you were commenting mine ages before you actually included the link, and it took me a while to figure out you were the same person who hadn’t had a link. (I’m still only assuming you’re the same Lola…) Because you left such excellent and insightful comments I felt attached to this mysterious Lola and immediately had to look at her link. Oh dear, that sounds creepy too. Sorry…
Apparently I feel reminiscing-ish.
Suzy x
Comment by dumpedbyahallucination — January 15, 2009 #
Insightful comments? No must have been another Lola
Can I interest you in a flippant remark or glib comment? Those I can do!
Lola x
Comment by Lola Snow — January 15, 2009 #
Lola, I have read many of your blogs now and think you are a great inspiration to your readers.
Comment by Life Works — February 6, 2009 #
Thanks for the feedback Life Works.
Lola x
Comment by Lola Snow — February 6, 2009 #
As someone who stepped into the world of eating disorders for a time and was terrified back into the real world, I am impressed with your blog. It is insightful, true, and amusing at times.
I hope you don’t mind, I linked back to your blog over at So they say that we’re crazy. We’re an emerging blog about mental health issues, recovery and understanding ourselves.
I wish you all the best.
–Solace
Comment by searchingforsolace — March 19, 2009 #
Hi Solace. Thanks for the feedback, and of course, thanks for the link.
Lola x
Comment by Lola Snow — March 19, 2009 #
Beautiful blog. You write so well, and your experiences are so gripping. Your honesty, well, it astounds me that you can be such an open book. I blog, but I keep so much hidden. Most of my fears about my eating disorder, just the overall wretchedness of it. I can’t bring myself to write about it, so I turn to you. I know I sound like a coward, I guess I am. Well, uh, thanks.
Comment by skinnylikeme — March 22, 2009 #
You aren’t cowardly at all, really. Living with an ED is hell on Earth, the fact you are still here says a LOT about your strength. It’s really good that you write, and I hope you keep doing it, that stuff will eat you up (!) if you don’t let it out some how. Stay Safe, and welcome.
Lola x
Comment by Lola Snow — March 22, 2009 #
i just want to say HI. my name is Ani and i read your blog every now and then. i can relate to some of the things you write about (i also struggle with an ED). i think you have a really interesting way of looking at things, it makes me think.
thanks for sharing your thoughts with us <3
-Ani
Comment by Ani — March 28, 2009 #
Ani it’s lovely to meet you, I’m glad you can relate but sorry that you have to struggle with an ED too. Thanks for taking the time to comment, you are most welcome here.
Lola x
Comment by Lola Snow — March 28, 2009 #
Hi. Um. I stumbled across your blog by complete accident when I was in one of my worse off moments, and once I started skimming I didn’t stop for at least an hour. There were some brilliantly cynical comments that struck home and it was the first time in days I laughed for any reason other than hysteria. Thanks for that, ’cause I really needed it.
From what I’ve been reading, you and I don’t have the world in common but there’s this handful of terrifyingly specific things that we do and seeing that there’s someone else– someone who said it first– has made it that much easier to breathe. So thanks for that, too.
Now I’ve bookmarked you and I’ve been coming back, and I’m currently digging through your older entries, working up to the present.
Your writing style is refreshingly intelligent and your sense of humor goes over really well with me (can’t be sure that’s a compliment, but it’s meant as one). Glad you exist, and that you’re writing a blog.
Cheers from the messed up boy lurking through the internet and empathizing with strangers at all odd hours.
Comment by jem — June 21, 2009 #
Aww Jem, that’s one of the nicest comments that I’ve had since I started this blog. Thanks so much for making my day.
Lola x
Comment by Lola Snow — June 21, 2009 #
Lola, my reason for being here is twofold.
I help run a website for people in recovery, called The Second Road. Our intention is to create an online community for people in recovery to connect; people recovering from substance abuse and the plethora of “disorders” that create unhealthy lifestyles. We have a multi media format, but are mainly literary.
My good friend has an ED, and so I’ve been seeking out more info. as to be a better, more aware friend to her. In two years, I’ve seen a lot of changes in her.
I recognized that on our site, we need to have more info available. So I’ve begun exploring the web and I came across your blog several times. I will now be a permanent reader.
Can you please email me? I would love for you to contribute to our site on occasion.
alix@thesecondroad.org
Thank you for the intelligent posts and humor that helps us realize a laugh or smirk is always in reach of the horrible pain we experience as human.
Comment by alixbryan — June 29, 2009 #
Hi Alix, thanks so much for your feedback. I’ll send you an email x
Comment by Lola Snow — July 3, 2009 #
i just stumbled upon your blog. i am so surprised and happy to find so many bloggers out there that deal with similar issues. i love your writing style. funny and honest. keep up the good work
Comment by randomlymikey — August 8, 2009 #
Hi RandomlyMikey, thanks for stopping by!
Lola x
Comment by Lola Snow — August 15, 2009 #
Hey Lola
I was surprised and touched to see your comment on my blog. Thank you. I’ve been reading some of yours. You write beautifully and have a wonderful sense of humour. I’m looking forward to visiting you often!
Ruby x
Comment by ruby0 — September 3, 2009 #
My pleasure Ruby. Keep fighting.
Lola x
Comment by Lola Snow — October 2, 2009 #
Hi Lola!
I recently found your blog on battling eating disorders, and I wanted to reach out. I’m the blog coordinator for EverydayHealth.com. We’re currently recruiting people to write a weekly blog post about their various health conditions and I thought you might be interested.
Everyday Health has over 25 million monthly unique visitors to their website, and there is a lot of potential exposure and traffic to come from blogging with the market leader in online health information. It’s also an excellent platform to promote education and awareness about eating disorders, and any cutting edge research or advice.
Let me know if this is something that you’re interested in and might like to talk more about. I enjoyed reading some of your old posts, and I think you have a unique perspective as a voice of experience that Everyday Health readers would love for you to share.
Thanks so much!
Lee McAlilly
Blog Coordinator, EverydayHealth.com
lmcalilly (at) waterfrontmedia (dot) com
Comment by Lee McAlilly — September 18, 2009 #
Thanks for popping by Lee, and sorry for the late reply, I must have missed your comment somehow. That’s a really kind offer, but at the moment I’m kind of swamped! When that changes I’ll definitely give it some thought.
Lola x
Comment by Lola Snow — October 2, 2009 #